define beautiful

Oh do I have a rant coming for you right now.

I just came across a blog post, and yes I will say what it was called. The title was Being Obese is Really Not beautiful.

NOW, I am not making any excuses for people who are bigger than other people. Hell, I am big and I am not going make an excuse for it. Yes, I work out and (try) to eat healthily considering I work night shifts so my eating patterns are crazy at the moment. Though I am working on that.

That specific blog post got me angry for some reason. They were saying how you are not beautiful if you are obese. WRONG.

I do not see what size has to do with being beautiful. I believe that anyone can be beautiful. You may see somebody and not think they are attractive but they may be beautiful to someone else. Someone else may love their chubby cheeks and chunky thighs.

I’m sorry, but I had to write that in. I love that phrase; chunky thighs.

I have gone off track, I’m sorry.

As I was saying, I do not care if someone is obese and they can no longer stand, I will tell that person they are beautiful because why would you continue to put someone down when they are already at their lowest point?

Define beautiful: I believe it’s when she is explaining her love for her favourite artist with such detail. When she is simply drinking coffee at 5 in the morning with a book. When he laughs out loud. When they trip over in public on their own but laugh at their clumsiness. It’s the way their eyes twinkle with happiness when they are simply being themselves. You see, the definition of beautiful has nothing to do with size.

Yours Truly,



my morning routine

There is something I love other than writing, and that is my mornings. Of course, when I am not working night shift, I like to still set my alarm and get up that little bit early. OKAY, so I may also hit a snooze a couple times before I actually get myself up and out of bed.

When I do get out of bed (eventually), I like to make my bed first thing so it not only wakes me up, but also gets my body moving and signals my brain that it is time to wake up. At the moment, I am currently redecorating my bedroom so maybe once its done, I will write a post about it for you.

Once my bed is made, I will then open the curtains and open the window a little to let some fresh air into the room. This is the thing I miss doing in the mornings. Usually I will come home from work and just lay down on my bed, meaning I would not allow sunlight into the room.

Coffee. Coffee is always the next thing I find myself heading towards. I can’t function without it, let alone go outside without drinking it. I will make my coffee and head into the living room where I may watch a bit of television if there is anything good on at that time.

I find mornings to be relaxing, it’s a way of self care and just.. taking time out for yourself. I feel that you must have that time in the day for yourself, to be by yourself and care for yourself. If I start to feel overwhelmed, I will go off by myself to another room and take some time to properly calm down and figure out why I am feeling this way.┬áPersonally, I find mornings and nighttimes to be that perfect time to have time to yourself.

I will then have breakfast once I have my coffee. My reasoning behind this is because I can’t eat as soon as I wake up, I have to eat a bit later once I have fully woken up and such. I may have eggs if I’m feeling up for cooking or I may just have some cereal. If I have natural yogurt in, I might also have that with granola and blueberries.

Do you have any specific routine that you do in the mornings, or do you just go about your morning like any other person?

Yours Truly.



mental health is important!

I KNOW, I KNOW, I have spoken about mental health before and how we need to talk about it more but this is more to do with work AND mental health. I find it is important to know such details when you have a job and you’re doing shift work or long hours.

For me, as a care assistant, I currently do 9 1/2 hours and that’s overnight. Now, that IS a long time to be working and we have to make sure we look after ourselves as well. The reason I am writing this is because last week we were very short staffed.. therefore some of us were given extra shifts.

I am already doing four night shifts a week so I was doing five last week. ANYWAY, I also covered someone’s late shift on Sunday night and I am not even down to do late shifts. So I only had one day off and I thought I would be fine and would be able to get through to my last shift of the week that was on Saturday.

I couldn’t.

By Saturday, I had a BANGING migraine so I figured I would take a little sleep and maybe I would be fine before my shift. Only when I woke up about 7 pm, my migraine was just.. well, TOO INTENSE and I couldn’t focus on anything.

Not only that but I was just feeling.. well mentally drained. I called in sick, explained how the migraine was too much for me and how it wouldn’t be fair on the residents if I came across grumpy to them.

Needing to work to earn money for a living is important, but you also have to make time to look after yourself. Whether you work a 9 to 5 or shift work, it is still important to get enough sleep and make sure you talk to your manager if you ever feel things are getting too much.

Tell me, wherever you work, does your employer focus on mental health and make it an priority? Or, do you own your own business? If so, what do you do to help your employees? Leave your comments below, I would love to know!

Yours Truly.




How I cope with Night Shift

I am usually coming home from work by the time everybody else is leaving home to go to work.

I will be sitting on the half seven bus, tired and exhausted while everyone else are wide awake and prepared for their day.

I will be heading home to go to bed, ready for another night shift later on, while everyone else is heading to work, ready to start their day ahead.

I only started working night shift late November last year and let me tell you, I really did not know what was in store for me. One minute, I was doing a few training courses and then the next, my new manager was giving me my start date.

Let me tell you what I do.

I work in a residential home where people who has dementia and can’t look after themselves well come and stay. They will not always stay there forever, some may only be in there for rest by. I am a care assistant so as a night shift worker, we are simply getting them ready for bed and assisting with any personal care needed at that time. I do not deal with any medication since the CTM deals with all of that.

We are responsible for cleaning the lounges and even doing the laundry. We take out the black bags and run back in because it is SO COLD at the moment. Although we don’t actually mind since it keeps us busy – well, up until around 11:30 pm.

From there, it’s filling out paperwork and occasionally checking on the residents, making sure nobody is on the floor.

Between 1am and 3am are usually. the hours where it’s the most quiet and we may just be chatting to one another. For the quiet times, someone usually brings a book to read and that’s what I do. I catch up on my reading to keep myself awake and because I love to read, of course. Others may usually just play around on their phones, or take a quick ten minute nap.

You may be lucky at times and have a super quiet night, but that is also where you should more awake and curious. You will have walkers, those people who will walk silently and then when you glance up, they will scare the absolute life out of you. No, but seriously, the quiet nights are ones where you need to check on everybody regularly and make sure everything is fine and there are no concerns.

I still get anxiety before I start a night shift, no idea why, it’s something that just happens but I simply work through it and tell myself things will be okay. And I say that every five minutes.

Around 5 in the morning is when we usually start getting residents up. We’ll wash and dress them before either sitting them in their room or taking them out to the lounge. It really depends on what they want to do.

Overall, night shift will be hard but it’s different on each night. The residents may not be in a nice mood all the time but I live for those nights when they are in a good mood because they are so lovely to be around.

I will be making more posts about working night shifts so if there anything in which you would like to know about then please feel free to ask. I hope you enjoyed reading this blog post and I’ll make sure to post again real soon!

Yours truly.

things to do on a cold day

Cold days can be difficult, and they make you not want to leave the house. Just thinking of stepping outside into the coldness and away from the warmth of your house is not pleasant to some. Although, a cold day can also be good and there are many things you can do. Make sure you wrap up nice and warm, though! Here are a few ideas that I thought of that maybe you'd be interested in.

1. Going for a walk. 

If you live near a forest, or a woods trail, they are always a great opportunity to go exploring. I have one round the back of my house, and let me tell you, it looked so beautiful. With crunchy leaves scattered all in a heap in the ground, and nothing but nature surrounding you. I love getting all wrapped up in my coat and hat. If you ever have family over for dinner, it's always a good place to go walking with them and you can also walk the dog. Well, only if you own a dog!

2. Go for a meal.

Even if you are not the biggest fan of the cold, you could pop to your local pub for a few drinks. Unless you drive, then you should drink responsibly. It's a great way to meet up with friends, or even make it a family thing. You could even sneak in a hot chocolate for afterwards.

3. Bake, Bake, Bake! 

Just recently, I have discovered that I quite like to bake, so I thought that should go down on this list. Baking can be with the family, friends or even on your own and you have fun no matter who you're with. You could invite people over, and do a buffet, bake little treats for the children. Baking is always fun, some may think it's effort but there are loads you can do to make it that little bit more fun.

4. Go Christmas Shopping.

If you've already done your Christmas shopping, then skip this bit. If you haven't, then stay put.

YES, I know it's cold outside but you need to finish off the rest of your Christmas shopping. I guess you could always do it online, and go about it the easy way and have it delivered. The BEST part about going shopping around this time is getting to see all the Christmas lights. If you have not heard or seen, but Oxford Street has their lights up and let me tell you, they are looking BEAUTIFUL!

If going Christmas shopping doesn't make you jump with joy, then you can always go with a friend and then grab a late lunch. You don't have to go to your local town to do shopping, make it a whole day and get the train to London. Unless you live in London, but you probably know all the best places to buy!

5. Lock the door. 

Many of you will go for this one, I think. It's the classic "lock the door, whip your bra off and get into your pjs" day. I must admit, this one is definitely my FAVE, but when you have loads to do it's difficult.

Although, when you've been on your feet all day, it makes you treasure finally sitting down and relaxing. SO, you can forget about Christmas shopping and you can just lay on the sofa, feet up with a drink of your choice. How does that sound?

Leave a comment on what you will be doing. Will you go shopping for gifts for your family, OR will you forget it and shut the world out and put your feet up with a drink of your choice?


Until next time,

Emma X




when I was 12

When I was 12, I always imagined how my life would turn out by the time I was 20. I would literally believe that I would have my own apartment at the age of 20 or even 19, and have a pet dog and everything would be fine.

I'm 20 now, almost 21. It took me a bloody year just to score a job, multiple employers telling me I need more experience, um? I don’t have my own apartment or a pet dog, and everything is not fine.

Although, I am.. kind of, happy?

I've realised you don’t need to have your whole life figured out by the age of 20. Don't rush yourself.

If you have a dream, whatever it is, please do not give up on it. You have that dream for a reason, and I believe you can achieve it with the right amount of hard work and dedication. I believe you can achieve your dream because too many are giving up on theirs.

So work a 9 to 5 job, save that money and work hard for what you deserve. If you’re 35 by the time you achieve that dream then congratulations. It may take you some time to reach it but it will be worth it.

Too many people are giving up on their dreams, but you shouldn’t.

I am going to admit something, it's something that's been on my mind for a while from what my mum said. When she found out I got the job, she was proud and was going on about how I didn't give up and kept going.

I was so close to giving up. So many employers were telling me I was unsuccessful or just didn't call me and hoped I would get the message. At some point, I started wondering if it was because of my Dyspraxia and because of that, my confidence and self esteem went down. It made me not want to continue, it made me not want to apply for jobs in fear that this was the reason.

Looking back – only 7 months ago, wow – I now realise that I was just being silly. I do not know if my Dyspraxia was the reason because the employer isn't going to say the truth. I carried on applying for jobs, putting my fear aside and putting myself out there. I am so glad that I continued to because as of right now, I am a care assistant in a well known care home.

What I am saying is, if you really want something – no matter how old you are – go out there and work for it. Let's say you want to be a dancer, then every second you get, just dance. Dance away, apply for a dance academy or even create a dance group and don't stop until you achieve what you want.

I know it's easier said than done, but let's be honest here.. nothing is ever easy. If you want something, you have to work for it. Some people think you can just say "Oh, I want.." and they'll get it in a heartbeat. I would rather work for something and be proud of myself afterwards than have it handed it

to me on a gold platter.

Although, you can probably buy a gold platter in ikea or even home sense. Next time I go there, I will even check and update back here.

This post was meant to be up on Sunday, but we had technical difficulties, no internet. We had no internet, AND no heating at the moment either so that's not really ideal with the cold weather settling in.

If you have a goal in which you want to achieve, please let me know as it'll be interesting to see what others want to achieve in life. For me, I want to be an author which I am currently working on.

As for posting times, I have

decided to post on Sundays. But, it may be Monday – it just depends on if I get it done on time but I should do!

It's now nighttime over here, so sweet dreams to those who are getting ready for bed or in my case, watching I'm a Celebrity.

Until next time,

Emma X







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sunday routine

Sundays are usually for timeouts for me. I have gotten through another week, and I just want a day to sit back and relax. It's also a good day to catch up on your favourite TV shows. Right now, I have just finished season 3 of Fuller House and I hate how they ended it on a cliffhanger. If you watch it, please let me know if you know when season 4 is up!

In the morning, I tend to sleep in but not too late. This is a habit of mine, but I tend to set my alarm an earlier so I am able to just lay in bed and do nothing. Sounds lazy, but I do get up around 9 or even half 9.

Although I can't eat breakfast first thing in the morning, I don't exactly eat that much of a breakfast. Usually I will have a slice of toast, or even some yogurt and granola. I do agree that eating breakfast does help you for a busy day. I should know as I always forget to eat in the morning and even before 12, I start feeling sick and well, I now know I should eat first thing.

Wow, I really just rambled on about eating breakfast.

Once I have had breakfast, I will usually have a shower or a bath, it depends if I decided to have one the night before. I don't really stay in my pjs as I do like to be productive at times (believe it or not).

At the moment, I do volunteer on Sundays and I enjoy it. Since I don't work on Sundays, I find that I like to keep myself busy. So in the morning, I get myself ready and make sure the house is tidy before leaving.

This is my favourite part.

I love walking up to the high street as it not only gives me fresh air but I like walking through the park and occasionally take pictures of the lake.

The place in which I volunteer at is Marie Curie. If you don't know what Marie Curie does, it is a charity where they support those with terminal illnesses. I've been volunteering there for a few months now, and the people there are lovely and make you feel welcome when you walk in.

I do that for a few hours and then afterwards, I like to stroll back through the high street and glance in the shop windows. Since it's nearing Christmas now, it gives me ideas on what gifts to get others.

As you can see, my Sunday's are productive but also relaxing later in the day. From volunteering, walking in the park and then heading home where I might run a hot bath and then watch Netflix.

Which reminds me, I've just started watching The Vampire Diaries. At the moment, I am on season 2 and I am having a war with myself between Stefan and Damon. Although I am only on season 2 so you never know, things could change.

What do you do on your Sundays? Do you prefer a productive day, or do you prefer to be at home and relax before the week starts up again?

I hope you enjoyed this blog post, and if you would like to write about anything specific in these, please do comment and let me know as I am always looking for suggestions.

Happy Sunday!

Until next time,
Emma X