When I was 12, I always imagined how my life would turn out by the time I was 20. I would literally believe that I would have my own apartment at the age of 20 or even 19, and have a pet dog and everything would be fine.
I'm 20 now, almost 21. It took me a bloody year just to score a job, multiple employers telling me I need more experience, um? I don’t have my own apartment or a pet dog, and everything is not fine.
Although, I am.. kind of, happy?
I've realised you don’t need to have your whole life figured out by the age of 20. Don't rush yourself.
If you have a dream, whatever it is, please do not give up on it. You have that dream for a reason, and I believe you can achieve it with the right amount of hard work and dedication. I believe you can achieve your dream because too many are giving up on theirs.
So work a 9 to 5 job, save that money and work hard for what you deserve. If you’re 35 by the time you achieve that dream then congratulations. It may take you some time to reach it but it will be worth it.
Too many people are giving up on their dreams, but you shouldn’t.
I am going to admit something, it's something that's been on my mind for a while from what my mum said. When she found out I got the job, she was proud and was going on about how I didn't give up and kept going.
I was so close to giving up. So many employers were telling me I was unsuccessful or just didn't call me and hoped I would get the message. At some point, I started wondering if it was because of my Dyspraxia and because of that, my confidence and self esteem went down. It made me not want to continue, it made me not want to apply for jobs in fear that this was the reason.
Looking back – only 7 months ago, wow – I now realise that I was just being silly. I do not know if my Dyspraxia was the reason because the employer isn't going to say the truth. I carried on applying for jobs, putting my fear aside and putting myself out there. I am so glad that I continued to because as of right now, I am a care assistant in a well known care home.
What I am saying is, if you really want something – no matter how old you are – go out there and work for it. Let's say you want to be a dancer, then every second you get, just dance. Dance away, apply for a dance academy or even create a dance group and don't stop until you achieve what you want.
I know it's easier said than done, but let's be honest here.. nothing is ever easy. If you want something, you have to work for it. Some people think you can just say "Oh, I want.." and they'll get it in a heartbeat. I would rather work for something and be proud of myself afterwards than have it handed it
to me on a gold platter.
Although, you can probably buy a gold platter in ikea or even home sense. Next time I go there, I will even check and update back here.
This post was meant to be up on Sunday, but we had technical difficulties, no internet. We had no internet, AND no heating at the moment either so that's not really ideal with the cold weather settling in.
If you have a goal in which you want to achieve, please let me know as it'll be interesting to see what others want to achieve in life. For me, I want to be an author which I am currently working on.
As for posting times, I have
decided to post on Sundays. But, it may be Monday – it just depends on if I get it done on time but I should do!
It's now nighttime over here, so sweet dreams to those who are getting ready for bed or in my case, watching I'm a Celebrity.
Until next time,
Emma X
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